Autism Research

» ladybugsuperfly2 - I always knew I was not like other people...

In response to I always knew I was not like other people... posted by prism97:
I'm so glad that I read this. You could be describing me. I just came across this web site. I work in a very social line of work and I usually come home crying and with headaches. The whole, "This job would be great if it weren't for the people" is true for in many levels. I've been described as looking like a "deer in headlights", I'm more focused on efficiency, and I find flirting and social interaction during school or work time to be an extreme waste of time. I almost resent it, but also feel strange because I seem to be the only one not to value or need this type of interaction--I find it annoying. I also do not look "bookish" and it often leads people to initiate relationships with me only to be shut off by my coldness or lack of need to conform or act normal. I get good grades and I used to bring my homework to bars thinking that I liked the social interaction, but really I think I just preferred to be out with my books. Finding a name for what is "wrong" with me is a relief, but I'm also seeing my limitations. I've been joking lately that I'm slightly autistic, and that is what ausberger's is. The stress of everyday normal interactions and having to act all of the time is wearing very thin. More than anything, I want to be authentic.

I am just looking into this myself, so I hope we can share resources. I am seeing a neurologist soon and will ask questions. I hope you get this repsonse. Thank you for a very descriptive and helpful post.

-- posted by ladybugsuperfly2